Thursday, 2 July 2015

Something about a guy I'm with

Assalamualaikum, and Hi.

It's been a while I haven't blog anything. I was intend to stop blogging at first, but somehow I'm really in need of writing something. At first, I was searching for empty notebooks, to scribble, to write what I kept hiding for a long time.

BUT! I can't find one! Suddenly, a voice coming in my head, saying that "WHY NOT BLOGGING?!'

That's how it's start.

Lately, I don't feel my heart is feeling so well. My brain goes too. I'm having heartache and over-thinking. My emotions stir and keep going to negative way. I don't like that. I'm always keep myself surrounds with positivity. To make me feel peacefully and happy all the time.

How do you want to be happy if your boyfriend keep making you not?

One day he asked "Why other girls keep left me, only you who stay?"

How am I not, even if I was heartbroken and stressed, if I'm being patience, of course I will stay. But don't you ask me, until when I can stand? How long can I be happy? Do you even care?

Somehow, I got what I want. But when I've got, I don't feel I appreciate. WHY? Because the type of person I wish is keep hurting me.

AJ was true, about guys who always keep their appearance as beautiful af  is GAY. I don't know why he said that. But for me, my boyfriend is fine, is okay with me except he don't know how to behave well, respect a girl and talk nicely.

I don't know when he will be learning to talk to girls nicely. I keep typing I don't know a lot. Hahaha. I don't judge him, I'm just telling what I feel. I hope, one day he could learn to be better man.

I'm actually finding a guy who actually don't point out my flaws. It's fine if he don't satisfy or hate my flaws. He could just tell me properly, and give opinion what should I do. Helping is better than judging.

It's better giving him a doa rather than talks much.