Friday, 17 May 2013

Love can be hard sometimes

Assalamualaikum and hi

I dont know if this is a clue or what but hati aku memang berat nak move on. This past 3 days, someone proposed to me, on the phone. He's my friend and the first guy who ever did that. I kinda like him too but i dont love him how much i love mr x . The thing is, do mr x even love me back like what all he said last time. I'm scared if this seperation doesnt mean anything.

I dont know but i did saying to him gimme time to think, it's like what mr x said..
But i dont think, i think anything. I dont know man, rasa bersalah gile. I dont cry like i cried for mr x. I keep thinking benda ni smua cepat sgt nak couple baru and im still 18 but yang peliknya kenapa aku tak rasa benda ni cpt sgt bila aku dgn mr x. I just dont want to lose mr x cause im so happy when im with him. Taktahu lah of dia happy dgn aku ke tak.

I still remember what he said ytd, dia ajak aku nak pergi rumah his mom lah, rumah sewa dia lah.. He wants to meet my parents lah. It's sweet cause he's so excited to plan everything but everytime he said buat aku teringat dkt mr x. Dalam masa 7 bulan aku kenal dia, mr x takde nak plan apa2 even kalau benda tu tak menjadi. I try to ajak him keluar but dia macam tkthu je tp dlm banyak2 laki lah, mmg mr x paling sweet. Sweet talker, menympah aku hahahhaha semua benda yg mr x ckp smua aku screen grab. Fyi, mr x lah org ptama aku bgthu dkt mak aku excitedly, then tah lah.

Kenapalah aku cpt suka orang? Tapi dalam 10 org yang aku suka (contoh) surely 1 je aku mcm excited nak buat everything. Skrg ni mcm aku tak fkir mcm2 tapi aku tkut mr x pun x fkir jgk. I know he is busy with his life.

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