Friday, 27 December 2013

HELLOOOOO. It's been a while I haven't update anything. I was looking at my past post and I saw that some of the comments been deleted by "someone" that I used to know. Haha, don't say that you still read my blog? That's cool. At least you don't forget me, I hope.

Anyways, I'm quite tired and damn starving. I just had my dinner and I'm hungry back, what is this?!?! haha. Actually I just got back from hanging out with some my crazy friends. It's quite late and I know... I'm 18 and my curfew before 2 am. I know some teenagers doesn't even have curfews -- how lucky they are but TRULY DANGEROUS.

Whatever it is, after I finished my last paper on 16th dec, I went to an entrepreneur's camp. YOUNG ENTREPRENEUR CAMP BY PUNB. yeah it was awesome and scary. The first day I was damn tired and I've surrounded by strangers. At first I don't feel like to talk to anyone, but after a few minutes, I do talk because I was bored of being in silent. I met Sarah, Anis, Hidayah and Farhanim. They were the most awesome friends that I have met even though we're in different age. Most important, I'm the eldest. heh heh heh...

It was 3 days 2 nights camp at Hulu Langat. A very very near place to mine. It was the most experience camp everrrrr. The best part is the last night, we gathered and play some indoor games. It was fun even some of them I don't know... To be honest, there's only one guy that I don't know his name or who is he and unexpectedly he's my current boyfriend. For me I took months to accept someone but he proposed to me face to face and I accept his proposal. Haha it's kind of embarrassing cause other people can hear us but it was the best thing that happen to me because he was the first one who asked me not thru social media. Asking someone to become your girlfriend thru phone is not that romantic or sweet or whatever you guys call it.

And we went out again just now. I never been like this before because after one date, tomorrow will be different. That guy will asking to let me go or just ignore me. OR I'm the one who are lazy to go out again with him and give a lot of accuses. I think I should go to bed right now :p nights

Wednesday, 30 October 2013

Charity Event @ UCSI 2013

Hey there, it's been a long time I didn't update anything, wanna know why? Since the class starts, I've been busy with my assignments, quizzes, presentations and mid-term exam. I had a lot of fun and been stressed at the same time. As we grew older, as we met new peoples in life, there are so much of attitudes and different personalities. Some of them are okay and some are not. I do not want to judge since I only know them like only 2 months, but it's freaks me out when there are personalities that I never seen before.

I do love my friends, from kindergarten (if I remember who is it) til University Life. They are waaaaaay too awesome. My high school's friends, mostly that I know are the craziest peoples and fun to talk too but when it comes to University Life, the more people I know, the fun it will be. I can't even remember how much people I know, but my friends are like more than 50? HAAHAHHAHAHAH! When I'm alone, I just say hi to the nearest person, especially girls, so at that moment the amount of the people I know getting increasing. HAHA.

Okayyy, let's talk about Charity Night. Well last Tuesday, 29th October 2013, I was joining and helping my friend performing for the event. So we were performing indian dance and flashmob.
I swear I'm gonna miss all the funnnnnn that we had <3

Sunday, 1 September 2013


Thank god August ended already. It's not that I hate August. August went great, somehow. August is when my parents were born and also their anniversary, well congraaaaattttssss for your 20 anniversary of being together.

Okay let's move on. As we all know, every month that come, we usually says "Bye bye August, Welcome September". Something like that... haaa... Or "please be nice september". Baby... if you make your month become great, it will be the awesomest month ever. Too bad, I was trying to make it great but other people ruined it but I'm still not saying last month were boring or worst month ever.

I went to orientation at UCSI Kuala Lumpur on 28th and 29th August.
On the first day, I asked my mum to accompany me to the registration centre, place, wtv. As a pre-adult or should I say still a teenager, we usually ashamed or embarrassed to bring our parents to come along because we scared to be teased or whatever. Well, I don't care, I'm still bring my mum and guess what, my new friends were like "Damn Merlina, I'm so jealous of you, my parents doesn't even have time to send me here". My university friends called me Merlina because I asked them too. I'm pity for that name, my parents give it to me and no one using it, except some. So I decided to asked them call me Merlina. Somehow, I feel that name were so girlish, since my attitude weren't 100% or maybe 50% like a real girl. huh!

On my way to the hall, my mum decided to go home and  I'm totally surrounded by strangers. Luckily, Natasha was there, but she was at counter 7 at registration centre. And it was kinda far from the hall. So the hall were located at 4th floor and I followed this chinese girls. I feel like an idiot, to follow them and sit with them. Unfortunately, they were LALAS. I'm not sure if I spelled it correctly. I need to wait for half an hour before the ceremony starts, it was boring because this chinese girls were ignoring me. So I decided wisely to search another place, where at that time I met Angely and Su Ann (omg I'm so sorry if I spelled it wrongly). Addition, Azizi and few guys from another country. Angely and Su Ann are the same nationality as I am and Azizi is from Indonesia. To be honest, I'm kind of jealous of Azizi because of her fairness and gahhhhh I want that skin. 

We had so much activities and one of it were categorize ourself. At first, the MC asked us to categorize us by gender, we were so lucky because three of us were the same gender until the MC asked again to categorize by who wearing specs and who don't. Su Ann were the only one who wears spec and she was like "waaaa, see you guys later, then"  . A minute later, we need to categorize by shirts color. Angely and I need to be seperated and find another partner. I found one, a chinese girl who wore blue shirt as I am and a few secs later, we found another one, too bad that girl doesn't want to be in our group and she waving at us. My partner said, "it's okayyy :(" It was okay until we need to find who has the same birth month with us. I was damn confused and trying to find APRIL group and that is when I met Bonny, Danial, Karleigh and few peoples which I don't remember their names.

After that, we had another activity, and I decided to go another group because that group got a lots of people. Guess what? I found a new more friends, there were Veronica who is my coursemate, she's from kazakhstan but she looks like korean, then Athika (I still can't remember her name were Athika or Athira, and I'm so sorry if I spelled it wrongly), Charlene, and many more.

The day when great and the next day were AWESOME. The next day we were playing lots of games and stuff. It was tiring yet we did have some funs :D


Thursday, 1 August 2013

"awak, minta number phone boleh?"

Assalamualaikum dan selamat tengah hari :p

Berkenaan dengan dialog diatas, selalunya budak2 laki yang akan try to have a girl's number by any way pun but mostly yang kita selalu lihat, si lelaki ni akan datang ke arah perempuan lalu memintanya. I don't like this way even dia berani macam mana pun. Mostly girl's tak suka cara ni. Cara lain pulak, minta dari kawan dia. Dia tahu kawan dia rapat dengan perempuan tu so dia pun kata dia nak try. This one freaks me out bile dia dah tau most of our detail and mula bertegur dengan berkata "Hi, boleh kenal?" Girls selalunya kata no except yang too social or think laki ni sesuai nak berkenal... That day aku ada baca blog dari si blogger ni, kita bagi nama dia M, well dalam blog si M ni kata "kenapa pula tak boleh nak kenal? bukan aku nak jadikan girlfriend pun. nak berkawan aja. Dia kata dia tak kenal aku. Memanglah, habis kawan-kawan dia tu before diorang kawan, strangers jugak kan?" Well that's true but perempuan ni memilih bab-bab nak cari kawan especially lelaki, rupa jugak, takkanlah kita nak berkawan dengan orang yang dress up macam drug dealer (even if he's not) or appearance dia buat kita tak selesa. But mostly if perempuan tu kata taknak, means dia taknak. Dia tak rasa dia nak ada kawan baru but if he keeps on trying and it's works well good for him :)

Monday, 29 July 2013

Ramadhan is ending soon

Assalamualaikum peeps.

Tak lama lagi bulan puasa nak tamat, so time akhir-akhir bulan ni orang membusykan diri untuk shopping and segalanya. Family aku selalu get ready awal so takdelah rushing nanti. Usually kitorang before berpuasa dah get ready. Kalau nak keluar fasting month ni memang penat sangat. Takut tak sempat for terawih and so. Lainlah orang yang tak pergi terawih tu lain lah al-kisahnya.

Sebenarnya family aku tak beli pun kuih2 raya ni, malas sungguh. Ibu kata nak buat sendiri tak pun tunggu nenek kasi. My grandmother ni memang suka buat kuih, lagi2 kuih raya. Memang banyak dia buat then nanti dia bagi dekat menantu dia. But this year I might raya dekat Banting dulu. YEYYYYY ADA PKAAAA ADAAA SEMUA. tak sabar nak raya, tangan dah gatal nak duit raya ni. eeehhhhhhh??? hahaha I'm 18 this year so duit raya tu tak tahulah dapat ke tak :(

Tahun ni aku berbaju biru dan hitam. Bukan hitam plain je, dia background hitam then ada pattern bunga. Lawa saaaangat - for me. Time nak beli tu, tengok harga mak datuk!!!! mahalnya. Then I keep convince bangla tu then dapatlah murah sikit, huahuahua... 

Aku taktahu kenapa mak aku nak bercolor biru, sedangkan that's not even my favourite color pun... hish! tapi takpelah, ada je color lain. hmmm i wonder kazen aku guna warna apa lak.. haih tak sabaq nak tengok. Harap2 kak fatin balik lah. Ish kak fatin ni, lupakan kerja tu, balik jelah kampung ): 

Dalam banyak2 raya, aku rindu time kecik2 dulu. Tengok diorang buat ketupat semua lagi meriah dari sekarang. Yelah arwah wan dah takde dengan arwah wan cik. Kalau tak raya meriah sangat, dengan kazen yang belum kawin time tu lagi. hurm kenapalah masa berlalu cepat sangat. kenaaapaaa?!?!?! 

Selalu kalau kat Banting, time-time arwah wan ada, kitorg satu family tidur kat rumah arwah wan. My mum ada 14 adik beradik, but 7 lagi tu stay jauh sebab diorang keluarga tiri and my mum side is 7 jugak, 2 meninggal. So imagine 4 anak arwah wan balik dengan menantu dengan anak diorang lagi and sekarang tambah cucu diorang. omg (It's supposed to be 5 but sorang memang duduk dkat banting so for sure dia tidur rumah dia except pka's siblings la tidur rumah arwah wan) Usually pagi raya, pka and I bangun lewat. Bangun2 tengok orang takde. siot
But now dah tak dah :)
Now lambat bersiap aja. Biasalah dengan kak fatin mendandan tudung dia, sekejap fashion ni kejap fashion tu then mula marah sebab tak jadi. hahaha then dengan syira dengan nak iron rambut but pakai tudung, tak pun cari baju mana satu nak pakai. Japgi pka mengamuk sebab ramai sangat dalam biliknya and semua ddk kat cermin. lastly kak ain dengan suka berlawak, time orang rushing dialah yang mengacau buat lawak but she's the fastest of getting ready. 

Itu baru kitorang, belom campur anak-anak maklang. Kak yatie sure bising and kuat complain. Kalau kak dayah lak, masuk bilik and ckp "eeee lambatnyaaaa" 
pewpewpew :3
cerita pasai ni buat aku tak sabaq nak raya....

Kalau dekat kampung kkb plak lain citenye. My grandma ada 4 je anak and smua laki excpt the last one. This year my aunt tak balik for raya cause she stay in Ireland and dia balik on September :3

So kalau balik, malam raya for sure tengok budak2 main bunga api, takpun pasang pelita. Usually my dad je rajin, yang lain rajinlah jugak but in banting pun my dad yang pasang pelita semua. 
Tapi sebelah my dad tak ramai pun kazen and im the eldest. So agak bosanlah tapi beraya tu best sebab banyak rumah nak kena pegi unless dekat banting, even banting tu lagi besar but orang sure keluar beraya tak pun diorang balik kampung diorang. Other than that, ramailah jugak orang yang sudah meninggal.

Syira : *glamour i*
Me : *texting boypreeeng* huahuahua
Pka: *aku excited aku excited tahun depan aku kena plkn*

HAHAHAHAHA! anyways pka dapat plkn next year so congrats lah ye :*

that's it for now. harap2 lah tahun ni raya lagi awesome ^^v

Monday, 22 July 2013

What's your habits?

Hello everyone, I'm here to talk about habits. Well everyone does have their own habits, either good or bad. For example, like one of my cousins, she loves biting her nails and it's a bad habit to do in public cause some people find it disgusting.

Anyways, I think that I've got a lot of habits. One of it is whenever I drink, especially using a cup, my pinky finger will not holding the cup or in another word, it point out. I don't know and I never realize it until one of my friends asking me why. From that day, I'm trying not to do it but sometimes I did it too. So yeah..

Other than that, sleeping. Whenever I went to bed, I always bring a jacket to cover my eyes even my bedroom is totally dark. Fyi, I can't sleep with the lights on except when I'm exhausted and tak sedar apa-apa pun. I really hate when I'm too tired and someone keep waking me up and it make me crossed and cry at the same time. I do not cry like a normal people, aku menangis yang bebel and macam orang tak betul.
It's not a good thing :3

Whenever I'm bored, I don't watch tv. I try to say hi to anyone in my contact as much as I can and talk to them for a few minutes and ignore them because they can't bring the conversation longer. I'm a game addict. I play any kind of games as in video games of course. There this one night my family and I came to my one of my neighbours house, diorang buat kenduri and jiran lagi satu ni suruh aku pergi rumah dia sebab my friends mostly kat sana lepak. So I went lah. Adik kawan aku pun suruh aku duduk sebelah dia, okaylah dah duduk. Suddenly he asked me to play counter strike, ok, mainlah. Hm sampai midnight pun takbalik main game dengan dia -.- Orang kata tak elok duduk rumah orang lama-lama, but my mum tolong kemas2 so aku lepaklah lagipun jiran lagi satu ni pun after midnight ada je budak2 laki lepak. They also never mind of me. Dulu case yang sama, but at the school, my friend lend me his mac, time tu dia baru lepas main game halo. I played and asdfghjk@#$%^&*( IT WAS AWEEEEESOMMMEEEEE. Kalau boleh, aku nak bawak lari mac dia. hahaha. Sekolah habis at 3.30 and I think he lend me at 4 camtu and I played until 5 something. crazycrazycrazy but awesome :p

Itu hak orang takpe ada limit masa. If I played my own game, dari malam ni until malam esok pun boleh tahan mata.. It's not a good habit isn't it? I used to date a guy who is really game addict, his addiction are worst than mine. Dia merajuk, tak bertegur dengan kawan dia sebulan lebih sebab dia kalah -.- funnyfunnyfunny. hahaha sebaik dia tak pernah main game dengan aku, tak pasal2 reason break up sebab kalah hahaha.

that's it for now
Now Listening : Next To You by Misty Miller

Monday, 15 July 2013


Assalamualaikum :)

Base with the title, what's bout with the fighting?
Well, that's what happened just now, in the office.
I'm not saying that aku nak memburuk-burukkan orang, but somehow I don't really like rude people.
I only rude to someone who rude towards me.
But bukannya aku yang bertekak tadi.
It's about the manager and the salesman.

My dad still doesn't realize about the manager truly colors. Usually workers or employees pretend to be good in front of their boss, like seriously who doesn't?
The salesman cuak sebab he didn't find the car that he's selling, so he asked where is the car.
Agak kelam and mengelabahlah jugak.
Siapa tak mengelabah kalau sesuatu barang tu hilang? Lagi2 if that his/her favorite stuff or orang lain punya.
Lain lah if orang tu tak caring, so s/he won't even give a damn.
At the end, they found the car jugak. Alhamdulillah.

Suddenly the manager came in dan mulalah diorang bertekak.
Dia kata itu bukan tanggungjawab dia and dia nak kena fikir about the workshop car and now nak kena fikir and jaga kereta yang nak kena jual. He said again, "masalahnya sekarang, kereta tu under siapa?"
Well sememangnya under the salesman but the way he said so rude.
The salesman minta tolong sahaja.
I don't want to write more the dialogues. It doesn't matter somehow -- to me.

Whatever it is, manager tu memang ada case.
With my friend and the company. He come and go.
He works for my dad dah lama sangat, since I was really2 young.
I think I was a toddler that time.
He quits the job when my dad had a hard time on economics and he applied to some other workshop in Kuala Lumpur. He even asked the other mechanics including my own cousin to join him.
I don't think they work there for a month or maybe a month more, (I don't remember) then the company sell to other people and fired some of the employees including them.
I think he beg at my dad to get the job back, and now he's the manager.

My mom were very crossed when she knew.
Is like he can do whatever he wants like he is the boss
I don't really like the way he looks at me. Dia pandang semacam, seolah-olah aku ni bukan kerja kat sana or aku ni macam tak layak nak kerja sana. Kadang-kadang, he suddenly speaks in english with american accent which is so weird. He even combined it with british.
Taktahu apa motif dia.

Whatever it is, lantaklah.
It's people's problem and it's not about me
So yeah :3
k then, chiao~

Friday, 12 July 2013

susahnya couple

hi and assalamualaikum

dah lama dah tak update blog ni, dah masuk bulan ramadhan dah. well uols, salam ramadhan ye? puasa biar penuh, kalau tak boleh tu, alasan mestilah kena munasabah skit. kalau perempuan tu tkpe, dh mmg dikecualikan kalau dpt abc.

tanpa berlengahkan masa lagi, meh back to the topic. kenapa aku buat “susahnya couple” as my post title?!?! well sememangnya couple tu susah. kalau couple tu susah, apa tah lagi kahwin.. kahwin tu lagilah banyak dugaan nye

sebagai kaum hawa, perempuan memang lemah even nampak je garang and tegas. takpun nampak je kuat..tapi kalau dah ditinggalkan atau hatinya dah hancur, menangis jugak akhirnya.

mencari pasangan bukannya mudah ok? kalau setakat nak cari lelaki handsome, hot, comel, kaya dan bergaya tapi kejap je together buat apa? lainlah si perempuan itu kaki main cinta aja..amboi ayat wa.... hahaha

tapi kalau dah takde jodoh tu, takboleh nak buat apa lah kan? janji kita dh berusaha sedaya yang termampu, cukuplah.

perempuan ni perlukan attention dari si lelaki, dan ini bukan bermaksudkan dia seorang attention seeker. kalau dia attention seeker, bukan dari boyfriend dia yang dia perlukan attention, semua orang lah kalau boleh. perempuan kalau dah percaya dekat seorang lelaki tu, dia memang dah tak kisah pasal wajahnya apabila tidak disolek, atau pakaiannya waktu dia mengalami lazy day or bad hair day. Yang dia tahu, si lelaki itu akan sentiasa berada di sisinya walaupun muka perempuan tu dah macam nenek ronggeng. well this is not a joke... fakta ok? fyi to the gentleman or not, jagalah perempuan itu bukan sahaja dia malah hatinya juga. once perempuan dah hilang kepercayaan kepada laki, say goodbye lah. memang lama nak buatkan perempuan mula percaya dan sayang seseorang balik. sebab tu ramai perempuan tak kahwin or jadi pengkid. takpun, buat lelaki ni macam boneka.

tengah hari tadi, ayah uncle ahmad idham bagitahu, kalau cari pasangan jangan tengok yang handsome aja. kalau asyik nak yang handsome, tak lama pun together sebab laki tu dah mula perasan dan bangga sebab ramai sangat nakkan dia. bila dah ramai, dia pun taktahu nak pilih mana so he plays around dengan semua perempuan...Biar orang sayang kita jangan kita yang terkejar2 sayangkan orang yang tak sayangkan kita. Bila orang sayangkan kita, terpulang pada kitalah nak sayang dia or tak. I know about this long time ago and now i choose biar orang sayangkan kita and yes i choose him. tapi kadang2 kita takut sama ada dia dah rasa kita nak dia so dia main2 kan kita. takpun, mudah rasa bosan.

its sad bila perempuan beli baju lawa2 or mahal2, buat hairstyle yang berbeza bila kelua date but lelaki tu tak perasan langsung. lagi sedih bila kita ada problem, dia nak dengar but problem dia taknak bagitahu. takpun, bila kita merajuk, dia ubah topic dan ignore yang kita merajuk. paling2 sedih bila kita hyper, dia mula marah takpun ignore. Ignoreeeeeeeee je semua. haih

i know tak semua lelaki macam ni tapi yang kita selalu jumpa berperangai sama.

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Reaksi Lelaki Yang Kena Reject - MOSTLY!!!

Assalamualaikum dan selamat tengah hari.
*being alim for a while*

Sepanjang aku hidup apa yang dapatku lihat bila lelaki kena reject mesti naik angin. Tak faham kak ton dengan mak jemah..

Hahaha, bila diorang dah start marah, aku pulak start gelak. Bukan nak kurang ajar atau main-mainkan hati perasaan seorang lelaki, tapi faham-fahamlah and tanyalah diri sendiri kenapa seorang perempuan tu taknakkan dia. Jangan fikir rupa aje ok? Tengok personaliti diri, mana tau ada something yang perempuan tu taknak ke. Contohnye ; panas baran, kalau marah tahap hingga hendak memaki dan menghina orang, kuat menipu, cepat couple lain bila dah break up. Cara nak move on bukan pergi ke orang lain. Ubah diri to be better person...

Aku memang tak suka bila lelaki flirt2 then esoknya dia keluar dengan perempuan as in dating.. asdfghjkl;lasdfghjklqwertyuio!!!! Tapi apekan daya, terpaksa lah sabar dan redha. Sesetengah lelaki memang tak boleh sabar, dia mesti nak couple dengan seseorang tu. Bila perempuan tu kata she's not ready, laki tu walks away dan pergi ke orang lain. Sepatutnye, dia kena try convince her ke or tunggu ke...
Situasi ni sering berlaku (eceh ayat mcm esei bm je) dan kalau ditanya, jawabnye:

Perempuan : Aku tak ready tapi aku nak dia. Aku takut kalau aku dengan dia, aku tak happy and benda yang aku inginkan tak menjadi.. Aku rasa aku perlukan masa untuk mengenali dia bukan terus couple dan break up nanti

Lelaki: Nak buat apa tunggu? Dia kata dia tak ready.. Aku malu bila kena reject, lebih baik pergi cari perempuan lain. Ramai lagi yang boleh try. Bunga bukan sekuntum kan?


it sad to hear from boys, because imma girl and benda ni selalu happen to me or to my friends. takpun blogger2 lain, diorang pun rasa sama macam ape yang aku rasa. tu yang bile perempuan tu dapat tahu lelaki tu bersama dengan perempuan lain, dia sure heartbroken and said "lelaki semua sama"
Lelaki memang semua tak sama, tapi yang kita selalu jumpa, itu lah yang sama perangai dan tindakan diorang. Nak faham tu memang taklah, memang takkan faham. Benda ni happen every single day.

Sakit hati memang kena tahan. Mana tak kawan2 perempuan aku asyik nangis, takpun kazen2 perempuan aku. Itu yang sebab tak ready, yang reject sebab perempuan tu dah taken tu memang sangat pelik. Guys, you know she's taken why kacau? Then nanti gaduh. FYI, aku tak percaya ayat ni "aku benci betullah mamat tu pergi rampas awek aku" atau "minah tu rampas boyfriend aku" seriously? hahahaha kau ingat perempuan ni mainan nak rampas-merampas? Situasi ni, perempuan tu yang salah, kalau dia sayangkan laki tu dia takkan pergi kat laki lain yang dok kacau dia... Sama dengan situasi lagi satu except it's opposite way.

Situasi lain plak, bila kena reject, humiliate plak perempuan tu. Dude, tak gentle ah weh?? Kau nak dia, bila tak dapat hina2 bagai.. Not a professional way. Memang bunga bukan sekuntum, well just walk away jelah bile dia taknak, dia yang rugi.. You're perfect to be you, orang yang tak accept for who you are tu memang asdfghjkl. Maybe bukan jodoh korang, maybe she's not good enough for you.. Tak boleh sopan? Ni nak marah2 kata "kau ingat kau bagus sangat ke?" dude, kalau dia takbagus, kau takkan nak mengorat dia lah.

So before nak mengorat tu, fikirlah dulu. Some guys, baru introduce dah tanya perempuan tu single ke tak? Well kalau dia taken, kenapa? Kau dah taknak kawan dengan dia semata takut bf dia marah kau? dude, kau takut ke kena marah? Kalau perempuan tu dah tau boyfriend dia panas baran and cepat jealous, kenapa nak layan laki lain? And budak yang baru dia kenal tu, takpayah sampai dah taknak kawan, rileks sudah lainlah kalau kau nak buat something kat perempuan tu (as in ngorat dia ke or hancurkan relationship dia -- tu memang kena takyah kawan. haaa~)...

other than that, aku tak suka kalau orang kat social network tegur aku dan bertanya "boleh berkenalan?" eee skemanya. old school oh. takpun tanya "hi boleh ngorat" pfft, setahu aku time aku darjah or form 2 camtu, mamat yang 20+ yang cakap macam tu.

20 year old guy (or above)in 2006 - "hi, boleh berkenalan?" = ok

20 year old guy (or above) in 2013 - "hi boleh berkenalan?" - weirdo

okay thats it

Thursday, 27 June 2013

my supposed life

Assalamualaikum and hi. Lately I've been thinking about my past. About what my mum and I were planned when I'm growing up -- what to do, where to go. Something like that. Since I was kindergarten, or before, my ambition is to be astronomy or astronaut. Anything that related of space stuff. I don't know why, but as a normal kid, especially girls (since Imma girl) well they were supposed to get dolls, dresses or toys for their birthday but I don't. Celebrating with a cake is a normal thing to do when you're celebrating birthday but I got a lots of encyclopedia books. I get excited to see all the pictures since I don't know how to read so well. Fyi, I'm still excited to read any kind of books that related with space. I still keep it though.

As I grew older, I took exams of UNSW. It's hard and I keep failing for some exams. But one day, there were someone called my mom from UNSW, he said that I can't answer the easy questions but I can on the hard ones. This is stupid. I think he is lying, or maybe not. Well nobody knows. When I'm 12, I was supposed to move to Australia when I'm 13. Sometime, I imagine, what if all of this becoming true and how is my life now. Good or bad? And who am I gonna meet with, be with. HAHAHA.

But it's okay. Humans plan but God is the one who make it become reality. It's okay if I don't go overseas but I will, one day :)

After all, my life isn't bad at all. I started to like art and I started to draw when I was kindergarten but I don't like coloring and that's what my mum and my teachers told me. Coloring for me is tiring even it make the drawing looks more beautiful than just a sketch. I do love drawing, until now. Thanks to Puan Najah and Mr Iqbal who taught me in Arts. Oh not too forget my sexy art teacher from Sri Inai. I forgot her name but I know she's kind of popular, that was she said. She told me that she has a big company and she drew a lot. She is sexy and most of the guys in my old school dreaming to make *** with her. I don't even know why. UH GUYS...

I learn how to ice skate when I was kindergarten, or before (I don't remember) and stopped at the age of 8. Cause the place that I always go with my dad is closed and the only place I know that have ice rink is in Sunway which is freaking far from my house. And I learn how to skateboarding when I was 10 and stop at the age of 12 because my mum scared that I will fall hardly like I did when I was playing my bmx. That accident was the worst I ever had. I was bleeding and I still have the scar on my elbow. I almost get hit by a car cause I do love playing bmx at the parking lot. Especially at my friend's house. I don't know why, it's just so nice. She used to teach me how to rollerblade and I swear rollerblade is the hardest thing to learn for me. I keep falling down and it hurts so bad but not bad as I fall when I'm cycling bmx. OMG I still can't forget that moment and I think I keep repeating that... haih

I love to do this kind of things but my mum is the border of every ways or every things that I've dreaming of what to do. I want to learn surfing one day, to start back skateboarding and do any kind of extreme things. I experienced doing flying fox. I never jump off from a highest place before and I did, it scary of course it is but after that I wish I can do it again and

I do wanna try sky or sea diving. It looks fun and scary and fun and scarrryyyy too.
I wanna try everything before I die because of yolo


Wednesday, 26 June 2013

Best day and night ever

HI. 25 June 2013 was the awesomest day ever. I went out with my friends and I met Mr X. Ulala~ Hahaha! My friend, Jha, was about to bring two of her brothers to come along with us but she said they won't fit in the car because we were heading to picking Jha's boyfriend and Iskandar -- my idiotic best friend. So the conclusion, there was only four of us in the car. I swear to god, I was being so silent in the car cause I don't know who I wanna talk to because for sure Jha going to talk with her lovely boyfriend.

This part is kinda funny actually. We were stucked in the traffic jam and suddenly there was an old chinese guy waving at me. I was like....don't look at him don't look at him... I don't know what he's up to until he wanted to do that to me. It's kinda scary when I think it back. After we already picked up Iskandar from his uni, we were heading to Sunway. He can't stop bullying me in the car. Until today I still have this blue-black on my arm.

When we already arrived at Sunway, we quickly go to the cinema and booked tickets. Sadly, Jha and her boyfriend doesn't want to come along. It scares me because I'm the only girl who watching with them. I went  to Carl's Jr. with Iskandar because I'm starving and I keep moaning while we were queuing. We actually running out of time, and I don't know why I don't feel to eat at all. So Iskandar told me that, keep it and eat it later. Suddenly, Farhan told me that he already at the cinema with his friend (I don't remember what his name but he looks like one of my neighbours). That really making me nervous to go upstairs again. On our way to the cinema, Iskandar asked me and he pointed to a guy who wore the same color shirt like Farhan but I don't think that was him. And yeah that wasn't him. Weirdly, that guy were looking at me like I was the one who supposed to meet him and he smiled excitedly. So I just walked past him quickly. It was the scariest thing ever happen to me HAHAHA! Then Iskandar saw he was sitting over there and asking me to go to him. I was too shy to go near to him...

In the cinema, Iskandar and I keep making noises, stupid faces, keep bullying each other, like what we always do in cinema. He even eat my burger in the cinema. Oh god and everybody keep asking me what smell is that -.- Embarrassing moment ever, I swear. Actually, to be honest, I do not want to watch World War Z, and that's what we were watching yesterday. I thought I wanted to watch Monster University but seems everyone want to watch that, I just say yes.

After we finished watching that movie, we keep wander around and I decided to go for an ice skate, with my friends even him. Too bad, everybody said no. It sad though but I keep forcing them and heck yeah, they all went with me except farhan </3 It was Jha and Harith first time skate & Iskandar and I were like teaching them how to balance and skate.

We played for like one hour and my legs are really cramped but I don't want to stop until I fall down. My idiotic friend here pushing me and I were grabbing Jha's arm so at the end we both fell but I don't know why Iskandar fell too, I guess karma just bite him aye? :p

So we split off because Jha's wanted to go home early and I thought I want to buy something for Elie's birthday present but I couldn't think of anything to buy... So we went to starbucks for a drink and spending our time there before he need to send me home.

Aww our first photo and I look idiotic funny. I thought I wanted to take some more but the lights are so asdfghjkl. My face are so.... !@#$%^&*(
I'm sorry, I just don't satisfied with my look on that day and I've a horrible smile, hahahaha


whatever it is, i had so much fun yesterday so yeah..

Thursday, 20 June 2013

my life is doom

hi. i've been stressful lately, thinking about future isn't an easy thing to do. planning is easy but to make the plans become reality, well that's the hardest thing to do. this month is ending soon and im still working for my dad which i supposed to continue my studies like the rest of my mates. i have a problem. money problem. money is hard to come but easy to go. here's my friends who doesnt understand my situation. sometimes i just think, im not rich yet im not poor. but everything nowadays need money. money money money. how can i find that? by working the answer but that wont make me have a 18k for a month like some of my friends who are bloody rich people. do think about others situation. do think of mine.

im not here to talk shits about you but hey come on, we're friends for ages and i dont want our friendship ended because of small matters. i wanted to go there too and we should be in the same class or maybe in same university. too bad im not lucky like you. i know you're blaming on me cause i said i might go there with you. might isnt a comfirmation. it's just maybe. i dont like promising and i dont promise even when someone said do u love me? will u promise that u wont leave me? dear dear, i try not too but i dont like promising.

right now, i try to call other universities to ask about their fees. every time i keep calling, i think the fees are keep rising. this is piece of crap. i try to asked both of my closest friends about the fees. it's good because the fees is much more cheaper than taylors. taylors lakeside is expensive and the place kinda nice. but i try to search other universities. i dont search for how good are the campus but i just wanna go and study there. i dont care much about their ratings. i really hope my friends understand about my situation and do stop blaming me. im sorry


Tuesday, 18 June 2013

What a beautiful morning

Hi there.
How was your morning?
Is it good?Or bad?

Well I'm here to tell how was my morning goes.
I woke up at 5.30 am -- if I've not mistaken, I awake because I feel so cold and I can't stop shivering.
I switch off the aircon (I don't know if this the correct spelling) and switch on the fan. I really hate to wake up early than the time I should be waking up.
I was supposed to wake up like 6.30 am and I was an hour earlier.
how awesome that could be.
So I went to whatsapp him. I thought he was asleep or what but he didn't.
So we chat for a moment until I fell asleep. I don't think I wish him good night. It was rude. I really hate to not tell people that I'm going to bed or wishing them good night, because I don't like our conversation hanging. I doesn't like when people does that to me but I think I just can't stand of my sleepiness so I leave them. BLEH BLEH BLEH... hate it

I don't know why but I like to say the blehs since I watched Hotel Transylvania yesterday.
I'm getting addicted to say those word. It cute and funny. Well whatever it is, I went work a bit late because I woke up at 7.30 am and I should be ready before 8 because I need to send my brother to kindergarten.
I never rush even I'm bloody late. I take it slow and being cool and that's why I always get detention when I'm in high school. BLEH BLEH BLEH

On my way to work, there is an accident happen on the flyover. I don't get goosebumps when I saw someone died on the road. Nahhh, I don't, except someone fell from the highest building then I'll get petrified. I keep listening to my favorite songs and my dad keep blabbering about the accident. I doesn't want to hear it but I just did.

It's 9.30 am right now and I hope for a few hours later, my morning gonna be awesome.
and I hope yours too

Monday, 17 June 2013

Hello and good morning peeps.
It's still morning even though it's only an hour left for afternoon.

Last night was the best night in this month. Haha, I slept early cause I'm tired but I didn't tell him that I was planning to sleep early since the coverage is being a b. Slow as a snail or maybe slower than that. Actually I really2 need to sleep early cause there's something in me, I don't know how to explain but I need to make a check up with the doc about me. The problem is I don't know when.

Back to the story, well I was put on my musics in my playist before I went to bed. I put it loudly and suddenly there's a bangarang song coming right up. I was listening to it and suddenly it stopped. I was awake after that happen, I checked the phone and I saw someone called me so many times. So I call him back even though I don't check who is it until he pick up the phone. Then I knew who was it, it was from him. I just can't stand to hear his voice. It just too sexy for me. Oh my god, what am I saying? HAHAHAHA what if my mom read this. Hm I don't think so.

We on the phone for a while and continue it after he went out. I think I didn't slept for a night or maybe for a while and after that, I don't. I stay awake just to talk to him until my parents woke up because it's already morning. Wow. I went down for a while and I didn't tell him where I'm actually heading to. I was shy, I don't know why. Oh god, just stop it. hahaha so I went back to my room and wanted to call him back. Then, a catastrophe happen. My sim card is broke. My phone doesn't have any coverage at all and it's all in sos mode. How amazing it could be and that moment I regret for hung up the calls but I need to. I try to reboot my phones but it's the same. So I called him using my mum's number, I told him everything and I said I'm sorry. I was supposed to get ready for work but I went back to bed, sleeping until the sun rises.

I'm such a good employee.. NOT!

The good things, I got a new sim card and all my friends were like keep whatsapping, bbming, wechatting, texting me. I don't know why but if I'm totally free, no one gonna bother me except him  -.-

okay then
that's it for now

Thursday, 13 June 2013

Assalamualaikum and hello

Well today I decided to make a new blog on wordpress . It been a long time thinking of doing wordpress rather than blogging in blogspot. It's not that I'm not loyal but I wanted to know other blogs features and widgets. Different blogs have different things and that's why it made it become unique and attractive. It's seem more bloggers are going to wordpress nowadays. More inspiring people posting inspiring photograph or text every single day and that's make me happy to read them. I love to read, write and share. That's what I do and that is me. I have pinterest too but I don't post anything at the moment cause I thought maybe later I'll posting all my drawings and sketches. I'm glad that artist on instagram likes what I draw and some of them give me compliments and trying to correct my mistakes by judging. Judging is good -- from our seniors or professionals.

This is one of my dreams. I wanted to learn how to do illustration and try to sell some of my artworks. I can't tell all my plans although I wanted to actually but I can't. I do not want other people to copy my ideas cause it will crush my dream so badly. It's not that I'm selfish but I will tell when I'm successful and my dreams come true. awwww i can't wait for that moment. HAHA :p

That's it for now

Sunday, 9 June 2013



Assalamualaikum :)

It's been a while I'm away. For your information, last two weeks were school holidays. Since I'm working this year, I didn't get any holidays. It's sad though but thank god that some of my cousins still studying and they had the holidays. Conclusion, I get a week off because my dad brought us to go vacation. So before we went to some places, my family and I went back to my mom's hometown in Banting, Selangor. We had a great time together and I was there for 3 days. The second day was the best. On that evening, we went to the beach. It's called Kelanang, which nears to Morib's beach. My cousin's dad work as a fisherman and he had a hut at the beach. It was awesome, we used to sleep there, having a barbecue, hanging out or swimming? haha, yeah.

Recently, there's some stray dogs come over to my uncle's hut. As a muslim, we can't adopt or pet a dog but technically, we don't pet them. I think the last time I saw this dogs were like 6 of it but it's only left one right now and it's a female dog. A bitch. HAHAHA -.-
Plus, it's called Hitam because she's in black.

Worst thing ever, she's having puppies right now. 6 of it and I say wow.
Apart from that, there also load of cats living there. Cute ones, for sure. This photo above is one of the cats who's my uncle petting.

The next day, which is the third day or the last day, we went to my dad's friends' son's weddings. So much of apostrophe..

The right box were mine and the left was Mikael's
Since, Mikael loves marshmallow so much, Pka took loads of it.
The strawberries were huge. I don't know where they get them.
btw, I don't really like strawberries, so I don't care much actually :p
I just wanna make some dramas, lol
I rather eat raspberry or grapes or green apples. That's my favorite fruits<3

mama mia, delicioso

Back to the story, after we went to the wedding ceremony, my family and I supposed to go to Malacca but they changed the plan and we went to Terengganu instead. 

From KL to Terengganu take ages to reach. I don't know how Farhan can go home from here for a night. This is insanely out of mind. We went to Kuantan because my dad was tired of driving and we overnight there. The picture above showing how tired we are of sitting in the car and it was morning and Mikael is still in his pyjamas because he get mad and doesn't want to bath. What a attitude. 

What important is we had so much fun. We went to Perhentian Island but there's nothing fun there actually. I get tanned, geez. I hate when my skin getting darker, I look horrible with it. Anyways, the view were superb.

I love the view but I'm not satisfied with the chalet/resort. It's beautiful from the outside but a nightmare in the inside. Worst case ever.
Whatever it is, on our way to this island, we need to go by the boat. A small boat and the ocean's waves are scary and we're terrified by it. It's was an adventure to us, our boat keep smashing the sea surface and it made our body ache. Pka is the one who scream the loudest and laugh the most. When the big waves are coming toward us, she grab my thigh. It was painful and our clothes are outrageously wet. No wonder before we get in the boat, I saw a lots of people are drenched by the sea water. I was thinking, where did they swim? It's a jetty and I didn't saw anyone swimming -.- And the answer were given to us. 

See how wet she is and she's wearing my only jacket. It was freezing and we went swimming after that. Since we are wet. hah. Thank god the island is bloody hot so it can warm us up but when we're getting in the sea, it's getting cold back.

This vacation are the awesome than before, I hope other people enjoyed their vacations too.
Well that's it for now :")